Introduction (Abbydoni)

Many of you know me fro the T18 site and my description of my self. I am going to attempt to post a photo of myself here, if I can find one of myself, since I am always the one holding the camera!  Thanks for all the hard work to set this up, I am so excited to be able voice my feelings here. If I get too sad, please let me know, as things are really rocky right now.  Losing Grace has placed a big hole in my heart, and I do not seeing it closing any time soon.

This weekend I went to the cemetery and placed a beautiful statue of Jesus holding a small child next to her marker. It felt so good to do it, as I worked hard to prepare it and even did it really fast, which for is a good thing.  Every time my tummy rumbles, I jump because for a moment I forget and think it is Grace, then I remember she is gone. Wow, I have been through so much in my life, but this is by far the worst pain ever. We so wanted her, planned for her, spent months talking to doctors about the risks and were told that I am healthy so go ahead, and then she is born with T18.

I know this will get better, and I do have days that I am happy to get through with only minimal pain.  Thanks to everyone for your support, love and prayers, they all really help.

Love,

Angela